Trust God With My Whys
Learning to Trust God With My Whys
Let’s see, how many years has it been since I was in college?
I won’t say how many, but trust me when I say it’s been many. 😉
What amazes me is how radically different my life turned out from everything I had carefully planned.
I thought “career” was everything back then.
My one goal was to become a TV reporter and follow in the footsteps of my idol – Jane Pauley.
When I landed that first TV job, I was in heaven.
I thought,
This is it!
I want to do this the rest of my life.
But God had other plans.
My TV reporter career came to a grinding halt once my father was diagnosed with Alzheimers. He was my rock and the person I most admired. You can read more about that here.
I was devastated. When a cruel disease like that strikes a person you love, it sends you to your knees.
The right choice for me was to move back home to be with him. I will never regret that decision.
Didn’t God Care?
I got lost in a sea of “whys.” There were so many things at the time that I didn’t understand.
Why did God allow this to happen to my father?
Why didn’t God care?
Tear-stained thoughts flooded my pillow back then.
Nothing made sense.
My prayers were earnest, and finally my answer came.
I had to learn to trust God with my whys.
In time, I saw a light at the end of the tunnel.
My thirst for God turned on.
The desire to read and understand the Bible reached a fever pitch.
Not surprising, when you’re up against a wall and you realize you’re not in control.
Expect the Unexpected
Many years have passed and I look back in amazement of how God brought me through life’s many challenges.
Once you yield control, you can expect the unexpected.
Who would have ever thought that this former TV reporter would now have a passion to write about God and share my faith with others?
Who would have thought that I’d end up in a choir loft with enthusiastic brothers and sisters in Christ singing praises to God?
Unleashing the Power of Psalm 40
Psalm 40 is especially meaningful.
When I first read David’s psalm it struck a chord like no other.
That’s it!
Those introductory verses are a great description as to what I feel when I look back on my life.
The next time tragedy strikes your life, remember we must trust in God’s sovereignty to get us through.
The Father of All Compassion hears you when you call out to Him.
O Christian, can you grasp the thought? The Eternal Father thinks of you! You are so inconsiderable that if the mind of God were not Infinite, it would not be possible that He should remember your existence! Yet He thinks upon you! How precious ought His thoughts be to you! The sum of them is great, let your gratitude for them be great, too! – Charles Spurgeon, pastor and author.
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1 Scripture quotation, courtesy of the New American Standard Bible (NASB) Copyright © 1960, 1962, 1963, 1968, 1971, 1972, 1973, 1975, 1977, 1995 by The Lockman Foundation.
2 Quotation from Charles Spurgeon, influential Christian preacher and author, (1834-1892). Taken from The Kingdom Collective. “The Charles Spurgeon Sermon Collection: The Happy Beggar.” n.d., para. 30. Web. Accessed 4 May, 2021. Retrieved from https://www.thekingdomcollective.com/spurgeon/sermon/3040/
